It’s been a while since I updated KiaraKnows with a story or a poem but today I thought, maybe I should go candid and talk about what I have been up to lately.
For the past couple of weeks I have been practicing meditation at a very basic level.
Just simple breathing exercises, I thought I’d share with my readers some of the little victories I have conquered.
There isn’t a lot that I can tell you about the benefits of meditation, that you wouldn’t find online or would otherwise learn from more experienced practitioners, but I’m just going to talk about what it did to me.
1. There is always, always something I’m thinking about, and more often than not, it’s things that I have no control over, because they never belonged to the present. Always to the past and to the future. I can’t say that I have freed my mind of all worries and inhibitions, the thoughts are still there, but they are not so much of an enemy now. They come, I observe them, I acknowledge them, and they go. A lot sooner than they used to.
2. At 21, I’m at a crossroads where…almost everything clashes at an intersection and sometimes I can’t see clearly.
A recent graduate, I now have a steady job and you would expect one to be happy with that. I guess as millennials we try to fit in so much more. Work, physical activity, a social life, family, higher studies, etc, etc. Sometimes it’s not really a choice, with the world growing smaller, influences from social media, pop culture and competition at every nook and corner. It’s hard to feel you’ve done your best.
When I take 15 minutes off every day to sort of, “pause” my mind, then when I finally open my eyes, I’m like,
“hmmm, I’m good, I’m alright, I’m loved, it’s going to be great”.
3. This next point is not so much of a happy one but it’s a stepping stone to a great change soon. (I hope).
Ever since I began meditating, there have been times where I have been in deep conflict with myself. I try to free my mind of all thoughts and concentrate on just my breath, but I observe myself going into places that I have buried deep behind the shelves of my mind. At first I would fight them and suppress them, but now I am trying to let them to surface. I haven’t succeeded so far, but I am still befriending these dark places, when I do, I am sure they will convert into great strengths.
That’s about it for now, I sure will keep kiaraknows and her readers updated if I do make any more progress, till then, if you have 15 minutes to spare, I think you should try it too. I personally feel anyone and everyone should try it.
We’re all running our own little races and we often forget how amazing it feels to just pause for a bit, take a deep breath, say thank you to the universe for putting you exactly where you are and being extremely kind to your sympathetic nervous system. Just 15 minutes of your time, no one can take that away from you, no work, no obligation, no friend or no enemy.